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                                             I heart pools.

I cannot tell you how necessary my best friend, a hotel pool and roller coasters became by the time I left for Florida.  I knew I needed some sort of break from my new Sarahcentric writing., but I didn't KNOW until I was crying into a a quesadilla  and black beans at Burrito Box in mid-town Manhattan.  Allow me to explain...

Besides additional writing for the blog, my regular TV work has picked up with some big projects that will take me all the way through the end of the year.  For some unknown freaking reason, when I become busy I try to solve it by making myself busier; adding on more day to day things that were fine to hold off on before, but must be completed NOW!  So don't worry, I made sure to make all of my doctors' appointments for the week before I left, as well as starting with a new personal trainer.  Obviously, these are all good things. But did they all need to happen right now?  At this very moment?!  In my panic-attacked brain, yes they did.

Right before I left, I also met with my graphic designer and the web guy who will re-build my blog.  I am very excited, but there ain't nothing like writing a deposit check to really whip a panic attack into a full-blown panic tsunami!  You can follow your dreamy vision all you want, but a paper check is concrete evidence that you're trying to make it a reality.  "What am I doing?!  Am I even a writer?!  I HAVE to submit to magazines!"  You see?  Sarah panics and adds yet another item to the to-do list.

So there I was in Burrito Box after my annual physical in front of a Quesadilla and 7 magazines which I hoped would be interested in my work.  They ranged from Buddhist magazines like Shamabhala Sun and Buddhadharma, all the way to to Self. "Where in the hell do I fit in here?!"  

Cue tears.

I cleaned myself up pretty quickly, so I don't want you worry about me.  I'm a sensitive girl, happens all of the time.  But it was an indicator that I needed to drop all of this for just a few days to get my head back on straight.   I cannot wait for my re-design, and my site's traffic keeps on growing.  It would be a dream come true to see my writing and name in a magazine. So I definitely need to keep on pushin' it.

But the fact of the matter is, none of this will ever happen for me if Sarahcentric turns into the No Fun Zone.  It will only work if it comes from my heart, and that doesn't happen if it's all twisted up in busy-ness and panic tsunamis.

I put off a big piece about community organizers I am working on until this weekend, or maybe next week.  Frequent posting is important, but the magic of blogs comes from talking directly to the reader.  So I just told my readers the truth, wrote a little something else and I still received lovely comments.  This reminded me that I receive as much kind feedback on my blogs about buddhism and meditation, as I do about family and friend stories.  This may not be a negative as I ask for magazines to print my work.  In fact, it might be a plus.

Breathe in, breathe out.  I'm back!

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